Neverland, FW and wtf am I doing here!

Well It has been a month since I have written last, and one hell of alot has happened. The Neverland adventure is now in full swing, to be honest as much as this opportuntiy is quite possibly one of the biggest leaps I have ever taken, it is equally as terrifying as it is invigorating. I have put alot into this event and there is no way it would be progressing this well without the tremendous help I am getting from like minded fae lovin friends.

My dream for Neverland is that it will be something far different than anything FW has seen, an dthat hopefully it will grow into something of its own. The Neverlands mean quite a bit to me, I have lived in this land for the most part of the last year, and thru no forthought of my own I was given the chance to make it a reality.

To try and explain how important the Neverland is to me, would be like trying to build a skyscraper out of macaroni. Neverland is a place built on the dreams of children. A place of wild possibilities and a place you are always free, anything can happen, and that is what I would like people to feel at Neverworlds. You could be swept away by pirates, taught to juggle with the lost boys, blow insane bubbles with the mermaids, make the dream tree glow with your own dreams, and dance at the faerie revels till you are floating above the trees, with whoever it is that makes your soul fly.

This dream is becoming a reality for me, and as it aproaches, my heart races and my mind goes nuts. Quite the adventure for a guy that feels like the pan himself, most of the time. Im not even worried about my booth, I dont care if I make a bloody cent, (i havent really ever made money anyway!)I just want to see people laugh and have fun, to leave the real world at the gate and just let go!!

I have two months to pull this thing off. Most of it seems to be goin well thanks to the help of my friends who really are the back bone to this whole dream. I want this to be a COMF family affair, as many of the COMF folk as can help or be a part of it will be there. I am putting everything i have into this and now I am looking ahead to when it is all over. When the mast is packed away, The Tipi taken down and the final light taken from the dream tree. I will be standing in that feild alone, just like last year, knowing it will be another full year at the least, till I can truely feel the Neverworlds, wishing I could just really take off to that second star to the right, cuz this world is no place for me.

I need the awfully big adventure!:)

You can tell a lot about a person by their room.

If you take a look at my room you will find out almost everything you could ever want to know about me. It is filled with books, silly art and a ton of movies. For some their room might be strictly functional a sleep only kind of deal, for me it is my sanctuary. Contrary to popular belief I am nowhere near the outgoing pirate most see at festivals or events.
So my room, then becomes my fortress of solitude. Books, comics graphic novels, movies and music have always been my fall back when art cant quite calm the demons in my head. They always remain the same, never change yet you can always gain new insight from them no matter how many times you have read or heard them. I Love to surround myself with these old friends to see them lined or stacked up is an extreme comfort to me.
My room is also covered in the art that inspires or intrigues me. It pushes me to to try more, even if no one ever sees the outcome. I love candles and muted lights that cast crazy shadows all over the room at night, with all the sculptures and odd bits of junk it gives a wonderful sense that anything could be lurking about in this odd little menagerie of monsters , stuffed animals and toys of mine.
I am a solitary person who doesn't do well with others, I talk, really talk to maybe three people in this world and not a one of them live anywhere near me. I'd like to think someday I will open up to folks but I doubt that will happen, I do better living alone in my room with my books, my music, my art.
When you see me at an event understand what you see is just a small part of me i let out every now and again. I love to play , i live for it, that chance to get out and make people laugh and enjoy the general mayhem of the festival when it sall over, I will walk home alone because that is what I understand, debauchery when called for and solitude in between.

I must go Mr. Barrie is calling me back to the Neverlands, I have a funny little goblin waiting for me with a bottle of rum.

amazing places very close to home

I am very lucky to have two amazing parks so close to my home. It is always nice just escape to these places and let the rest of the world sod off for an hour or two. If you ever get the chance an dare in Seattle both Seward Park and the Kubota gardens are perfect escapes, and that's not counting the many places you can get lost in either place. I especially like the place I call the cathedral in kubota gardens its too dark to take a pic with my phone but it is very beautiful and i have yet to ever find anyone else there.

some fun outdoor stuff found this weekend

When I wasn't out jumping about in silly outfits this weekend .I was at City Peoples Mercantile, checking out the fun stuff they have for the gardening enthusiasts. I love this place so much fun stuff to find.

a weekend of music

Well this weekend was full to b sure starting off with a March 4th concert in Fremont, with my friend Kuph. I found out just how important it is to keep a couple extra bottles of whisky in the car just in case the event doesn't have a bar! Amy and Christie I hope your feeling well. The band played till around 2 am and they were amazing!! Seriously thought the floor would cave in at times!

Saturday was the HONK festival, it is basically a street festival with a lot of marching bands similar to March 4th. but fun crazy stuff street performers dancers hoops everything. this event goes across town for three days to different neighborhoods very very fun!

Then Abney Park show at Studio Seven! Actually this was a concert and circus show!! Acrobats (Jenny Penny!!) and fire dancers a great ring leader, some fun steampunk vendors and just allot of fun all around. I got to hang out with some friends Copper and Heather and drink vast amounts of cider and whisky sours YUMMERS! This was a very fun weekend now its off to get some work done!!

The only girl for me.

This is the only girl for me. This wonderful little lady keeps me in check daily, perhaps the only thing in my life I have ever gotten right. We are best buds and that the way it will stay. Everyone else is a distant second.

Freedom wtf is it.

Freedom, i haven't found you yet.

I thought I had you months ago,

however I'm still stuck in my own

self made shackles.

Free to do what you want is in itself

a boundary that is hard to define.

What is it you really want

will you loose your freedom once you find it.

Vision is only perfect

when you look backwards to the past.

You can see where freedom eluded you

as you tried to hold it firmly in your grasp.

Freedom doesn't mean solitude,

although right now that's all I have.

Perhaps one day I'll learn

That freedom isn't found

but given by my own hand.

True freedom comes from from within

to be happy with ourselves

wherever it is we are,

and whatever it is we are doing.

It's not what we do or who we are with

but the fact we can find joy in life

when we have neither.

I hope one day I'll find you freedom

but right now I'm stuck

in the doldrums of a tired mind that thinks

your still on the horizon.